Tuesday, October 6, 2009

I am a horrible mother

When my alarm went off this morning, I woke up thinking to myself what a good nights sleep I got last night. No crying kids, no middle of the night potty breaks, no one asking me to put a blanket on them, and an overall comfortable night for this pregnant body of mine. I turned off my alarm and lay in bed just a couple of minute enjoying a great nights sleep. I could only enjoy for a couple of minutes though because I knew if I didn't get out of bed our entire morning schedule would be thrown off. So I headed off to the girl's room to wake them up. . .

I flip on the light and find Bailey laying on the wrong end of her bed, which is not unusual because she is a restless sleeper, but she is completely dressed for the day. Hmm, that is weird. And then I really look around the room. There is a pile of at least 30 wipes wodded on the floor. Bailey's pajama shirt is on the floor with puke all over it. There are two huge spots at the head of her bed that once were filled with throw up, but had been cleaned up (thus the wipes on the floor). And there is puke in miscellaneous places around the room, including splattered on three different walls.

My poor Bailey girl threw up not only once, but twice in her room in the middle of the night, without me knowing it, and proceeded to clean it up, clean herself up, get dressed and go back to bed. Honestly, what kind of mother am I to not hear any of this going on. Not only that, but there is throw up on the light switch, so she had to have turned on the light and I didn't notice that?!? Please!

So I start taking the sheets off her bed and am trying to determine where to go from there when Bailey says, "Mom there is some in the bathroom, too". I go into the bathroom and there is puke all over the wall, the bathroom rug, the shower curtain and toilet as well. And there are her pajama pants (how come I didn't notice that her pajama pants weren't in the room?).

So just to recap, my poor, poor Bailey girl (just 3 years old mind you) wakes up in the middle of the night, throws up twice in her room, goes to the bathroom and throws up at least twice in there, turns on lights, tries to clean everything up, gets dressed, turns off the light and goes back to sleep on the "clean" side of her bed without her mother even budging a muscle.

Yes, I had a great nights sleep last night, but not without tears this morning for not being there when my daughter needed me.

8 comments:

Megan Bruschke said...

OH MY GOODNESS - I don't think you are a horrible mother, I think Bailey is an AMAZING child! I can't imagine one of my children doing all of that without screaming at the top of their lungs that they needed me - what an independent little girl! Seriously, Rach - don't feel bad - feel proud that you have already raised such a responsbile little girl! Love you and miss you!

Brooke and Aaron said...

Oh Rachel. You are a fantastic mother and this situation proves that you are doing a great job raising autonomous children. Every mother has been there and even if you don't feel you were there for Bailey when she needed you, you know that our Father in Heaven is always there watching over us. Keep your chin up!

Michelle said...

Oh my gosh...I can't believe she did all that without bothering you! What a sweetie...she must really be watching you & learning what to do in all types of situations. Don't waste your time feeling guilty; you're an amazing mother.

Greg said...

Don't worry, Brett didn't wake up either... :)

Ali said...

This is an incredible story just cause it shows what an AMAZING mother you are, and what an awesome kid you have:) I love it. Plus, what were you supposed to do? You may be horrible if you HAD heard her, and ignored her...but you didn't hear a peep and that's what's so awesome about it! I hope she feels better soon.

Ruth said...

I must agree with the comments above! You are wonderful! At least you got a good nights rest so you could have energy to clean up what she missed!

The Trotter Family said...

If you are a bad mom, I shouldn't show my face in public! You are a fantastic mother and what you saw was your little girl trying to be self reliant. That is a great trait to have! I hope she is feeling better and that these hormones that are raging in you calm down a bit!

Khayyam said...

Rachel, if you didn't hear it then you have an amazing daughter. You must be doing something right is she is cleaning up after herself through all of that, afterall she isn't feeling very good. I know my kids aren't quite that independent. The Lord must really love you to allow you to get some much needed sleep through all of this.